Don't keep it to yourself......speak up!

TV Audition: "Twilight” (Pilot) @ FMW Casting
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Wow. I'll be honest here. I'm kind of at a loss for words. This audition was very special, inspiring, sad....just a whole range of emotions flood through my mind as I reflect on this audition.

You ever want something so bad you could taste it? We all have. And I'm not talking something generic like " I want to be a star", etc. I mean something specific. That's how I felt about this role. This audition was for a recurring guest star on a pilot....in other words....a series regular in my book! Yeah! It's that serious. One of those potential life changers.

I won't go into details but I had a friend pull some strings in order for me to be seen for this role. I rarely ever do that..but I felt this role was sooo right for me, I had to use any contacts that I had, and they were happy to try to do so. Well it worked! I got the audition for the next day and I went in to read for this HUGE role that I think I'm perfect for. Needless to say, I thanked this person profusely and I hope they'll call on me to do them a favor some time. I never forget to repay a favor. I know it sounds like I'm getting "Godfather" here but these gestures, these supportive comments from this person and so many others that I've met out here are very inspiring to me. They should be embraced and encouraged.

True story- My mother was in town visiting me once and we went out breakfast at an IHOP or something. The young lady who was waiting on us was AWESOME! Very friendly, happy, engaging, etc. The food was great, the service was great....you get the point. So it's time to pay the check and my mom and I are talking about what great service she provided for us. Now I pride myself on being a generous tipper....so I totally planned on leaving her a very nice tip. Then my mom tells me "You should tell her what a great job she was doing." Ummmm, isn't that why I'm leaving her such a fat tip. She'll get the point trust me. Then my mom explains to me how sometimes it's important for people to actually get feedback or be acknowledged on how they're doing. What if she didn't think her extra effort was being appreciated. Maybe I just happen to be a generous tipper to everyone...good or bad. Maybe after this customer she'll say "You know what, no one notices if I put in an extra effort so...why bother." She's right. I used to do that with soldiers that I was in charge of in the Army. If you acknowledge and reward your people......trust me, they will take care of you and make you shine. So, you know what happened next. We complimented her for her great service, told her manager what a great job she did and that was that.

Point here is, when people go above and beyond the call - Acknowledge it! They didn't have to. They're not obligated to......but they did. So to this friend and all the other people in the industry that have been looking out for me. Personally and professionally....I see you out there! Thank you. (And trust me, I've thanked all of them personally when I've had the opportunity to do so.)

Back to the audition: So I get the call that my audition is for the next day. For such a huge role....it is kind of a short notice. But they've been casting this for a while and I'm getting in at the end. I'll just have to do my best. Besides, I'm pretty strong with my cold-reading skills. It's cool. Let's dance and see what magic happens.

To be honest.....I felt pretty damn good about my audition. I made a strong choice, the cd seemed as if she really liked my work. Hey, you can't ask for more than that. I'll admit, this is one of those roles that I REALLY want. If it's God's 's Will it will happen. I just have to force myself to leave this one alone and move on to the next one. Please pray for me.

As I write this, it doesn't look like I've gotten the part...Oh well,
I can still dream can't I? Moments like this will only make me appreciate my success even more in the future.